Happiness

Chapter 10 – Happiness

Tom woke up, all sweaty. It was too hot there! He tried to move and noticed a short body embracing his, lying softly his head on his chest.

-Brian… – he whispered, grinning from ear to ear with his eyes shining, like someone that have seen the most graceful thing in the world.

Carefully, Tom took off the duvet and hugged Brian, who moved a little. Tom stopped breathing, afraid Brian would wake up… but he only mumbled something incomprehensible and got closer to him, as if he was a giant teddy bear.

Tom wanted to be like that forever, cuddling his adorable lover, feeling his soft skin against his own.

Tom gently stroked Brian’s hair, taking it out of his angel face and gently kissing his forehead.

-I love you very, very much – he whispered.

-Me too… – Brian answered smiling, still with his eyes closed. He hugged Tom tightly.

-Oh… I’m sorry I woke you up – he stroked Brian’s hair with fast movements, concerned.

-If you hadn’t I’d get very angry with you – he said in his sleepy nasal voice, caressing Tom’s neck with his nose – I wanna live every moment I have you – he filled Tom’s neck with butterfly kisses.

-I think it’s not only the morning hardening my manhood – They giggled.

-I think I’m too sleepy for that – he kept kissing Tom though.

-And you’ll keep kissing me? – he asked teasingly.

-Hmmm – he stopped for a moment – yeah – and then kissed his jaw – it feels good. – he smiled softly.

-It’s ok, baby – Tom hugged him, who smiled – May I get up?

-Nooo. – Brian refused and giggled.

-I’m hungry! – Tom giggled.

-Eat me! – Brian crawled on top of him, staring teasingly.

-Noo, you need rest – Tom kissed the tip of his nose and, gently, pulled Brian away. He stood up. – Do you have a new teeth brush?

-No. It’s ok to use mine, you know – Tom made a quite disgusted face – you suck my dick but find “yeewwy” to use my teeth brush? – Brian stared ironically.

-Ok – Tom raised his eyebrows and shrugged – GOOD POINT!

…

Brian was buttoning his shirt. Tom, already dressed, was still drying his hair with a towel, even though ’twas very short.

-You’re going to have a busy day, today, aren’t you? – Tom asked.

-Yeah, today and almost every day. – Brian answered while dressing up, without turning to Tom.

-You have my phone number. I’ll be with Anna, and we’ll go to every gig – Tom said firmly, Brian turned to him quite surprised.

-Aren’t you going to travel with me?

-No, Brian – Tom raised his eyebrows indeed – If I’d depend on you, we wouldn’t have been apart for so long.

-Tom, how are you paying it?

-Anna’s doing.

Brian looked away, annoyed.

-Of course, you can depend on her but not on me – he said sarcastically.

-Brian, don’t be a fool. You’re the one who said I couldn’t pay AND she offered it to me, I didn’t ask anything to anyone. So you can’t say anything about it.

Brian sighed, pointless. Tom back-hugged him, Brian still looking away. Tom caressed his neck and kissed it gently.

-Baby, you can find me anytime. I’ll be always close to you. You know I’m not wrong.

-I know – Brian turned to him, Tom held his face and kissed him.

-I’ll meet Anna, she must be angry with me. I couldn’t take her to your after party.

-Of course you couldn’t! – he interrupted him, Tom laughed.

-Don’t be jealous! I’m gay. And she loves you! – Tom couldn’t stop laughing at Brian’s face.

-I’m NOT jealous! And are you gay? – he raised softly his eyebrows.

-Of course. About you being jealous and me being gay. Didn’t you know it? – Tom was surprised, but still grinning and giggling.

-Noo – Brian sat on the bed, gazing the wind – actually… we don’t know many things about each other. – Tom sat by his side and held his jaw, thoughtful.

-Actually, Bri, we hadn’t much time to. How much time did we spend together?

-Two weeks and two nights?

-Yes – as Brian stayed shocked, Tom grinned and kissed his cheek – that’s pure love!

Oh yeah, the dream of a poet.

But… Brian always missed Tom so deeply when they weren’t together… how could it be?

-”Love has reasons that the Reason itself can’t understand” – Tom recited.

-I almost forgot about your poetic quotes! – Tom giggled.

-A Brazilian told it to me – he smiled dreamy – You know I believe in love… in a very strong and devoted way. I hope you do, too.

Brian kept those words in his heart.

-x-

…

Anna crossed her arms. 3 minutes late, M. Thomas!

-Anna! – she heard a voice yelling her name. Tom was running into her direction.

-Bonjour – she said bitterly, Tom hugged her.

-Petit, one day I swear you’ll forgive me! – he kissed her forehead.

-You look happy – she said dryly.

-I am! – he smiled – Shouldn’t you be too? The gig.. – only by mentioning it her eyes shinned.

-I feel dizzy, it was so perfect it felt like a dream. It’s so fucking amazing to think I’ll be in every gig of this tour.. hard to believe it’s all for real – she was dreamy, apparently nothing could take that that smile out of her face now. Tom liked it.

-But it’s not your first gig.

-I know! But every single one is unique.

-You love Brian, don’t you? – he said, proud of his lover, she turned to him with crazy eyes and grin.

-ALL OF THEM! – she sighed – including Beanie and everyone that left…

-What happened to them? – Tom didn’t know it. It was one of the many things he didn’t know about Brian, and he knew the band mates were some of the most beloved friends Brian had.

-Bri and Beanie have strong personalities, after more than ten years things started to fall apart and i believe they had a… very bad fight – she said melancholically. Tom stayed wondering, Anna watched how he acted every time she talked about Placebo. What was the deal?

-Well – Tom finally said tearing Anna’s line of thoughts in pieces – how was your night?

-I – she blushed – terrible. I was at the twin’s or wherever. I felt so alone, and Karin tried to have sex with me – she raised her head, her eyes burning with small tears. Tom almost jumped in surprise and concern, and cuddled her, stroking her hair.

-Shh, shh, hush.. Don’t cry.

-I… – she was sobbing – I don’t know why I’m crying? Am I such a stupid child? – she dried her eyes. Tom hugged her tightly.

-You’re not… you’re just my petit. It’s ok, I’m here – he felt guilty.

-x-

The tour bus started to move.

-Boys, you know the schedule. Hair, make-up, interview – Alex said.

-Ok, I know – Brian said in mockery.

-Brian, are you ok now? – Stef asked smiling. Brian kissed his cheek.

-Yes!

-You and that guy.. – Steve started, quite embarrassed but smiling, Brian covered his face with his palms.

-Yes – he said annoyed – it wasn’t supposed to be said in high voice when everyone is listening.

-So I think you shouldn’t have kissed him in front of everyone, dude – they giggled. Brian finally smiled.

-It’s not something to be ashamed of anyway.

-He’s hot – Stef repeated.

-Is he? – Steve asked.

-I don’t know for you, Stevie – Brian said teasingly – he’s mine, anyway.

-Hey! I’M STRAIGHT! – Nick glanced at him quickly, raising his eyebrows, he blushed.

No one seemed to notice.

’twas their secret. Wasn’t it?

WHAT was it?

-x-

…

-I promise, today I won’t leave you alone.

First role. Brian looked Tom into his eyes and smiled.

…

-Don’t open your eyes…

-What are you taking me Tommy?

-Open now..

-WHAT THE FUCK?! – she screamed, her jaw dropped.

-Hey! – Steve said, cheerful.

The whole band.

B-brian.. Sunshine.. STEF! Bill, Nick, Fiona… EVERYONE! Even the ones she didn’t know the name properly, but more or less the face.

-She’s Anna – Tom smiled, Brian stared at him and sighed. Anna was looking from one to another, almost crying, not understanding anything.

-Hi, Anna. I’m Brian. – he said, she nodded in shock.

-Of course you are – she shed a tear, she slowly and trembling lift up her hand and touched her cheek.

Everyone (except from Brian) was smiling. Steve had a huge grin, and hugged her. She started softly uncontrollably, smiling at the same time. Her completely wet face wasn’t very good for expensive shirts, Steve wasn’t wearing one though.

Steve broke the hug. The others came, Stef sweetly kissed her cheeks. Everyone, but Brian, was very gentle with her.

-Now hug each other – Tom pushed Brian and Anna, Brian hugged her against his will.

-I love you so much – she tried to say between sobs.

-I know – he said loosely.

-I TOLD him – Tom looked impatient at Brian, whispering “be nice” – well – they broke the hug, Tom cuddled Brian. Anna blinked, waiting for explanation.

Fiona was staring curiously at the couple, Nick was taking care of his own stuff. Steve and Stef were grinning.

Brian seemed quite annoyed, he hated to be the center of the attention LIKE THAT.

-He’s the mysterious guy – Tom said, grinning. Anna froze, speechless. Tom nodded, waiting a reaction – ?

She was still speechless, trying to say something, but nothing came. Steve had the funny idea of pulling Brian, encouraging him to kiss Tom, that time she screamed.

-OH MY FUCKING GOD! I CAN’T BELIEVE IT! DAMN LUCKY FUCKING BASTARD! – she was clapping, screaming, leaping, her eyes all teary.

They took pictures, gave autographs, talked to her. She felt stupid crying so much, but with the time she could talk more and more normally, tears becoming smiles.

Tom felt happy.

Happy because of his love, stronger than everything.

Happy because of his little sister.

For the first time in such a long time… he had a family.

“There isn’t sadness that last forever, nor happiness that never ends”

Night (+18)

Chapter 9 – Night

Tom sweetly put Brian’s wet hair behind his ear, both still panting.

-I love you. – they kept eye contact, just like they used to do months and months ago, in those short 2 weeks, last year. They smiled at the unbelievable pure happiness they haven’t felt for so long.

-I love you too… so much – they kissed briefly – We gotta get out of here, I wanna sleep by your side.

Tom’s eyes suddenly grew wide.

-Oh shit – he patted his own head.

-What?

-Ma petit Anna – Brian blinked.

-Who’s that? – he asked dryly.

-She’s like a younger sister for me, she took me with her in your tour and she’s gonna hate me forever ’cause I came here without her and… – Tom felt terribly guilty, Brian lit a cigarette.

-You’re not fucking going to destroy this moment because of a… – Brian was almost spitting angrily, when Tom laughed – What? – Tom kissed him.

-Tomorrow I’ll talk to her – he kept kissing Brian, a lot of deep but brief kisses on his soft skin, coming from his mouth, to his neck, passing by his ear and licking all the way until his shoulder. Making Brian shiver and shrink in flattered delight.

-Ok – He smiled and stared at Tom in anticipation of the wonderful night they’d have. Tom felt like melting in front of this big and lovely blue eyes -I’ll call a cab.

-I love you, my angel. – Tom cuddled him, stroking his hair and smelling his skin. All the sweat felt good in this specific situation.

-x-

Nick and Steve were dancing, holding bottles on their hands. Tonight they’d surely get extremely drunk. The lights flickered and spinned around, so it wasn’t very easy to see through the dance floor, not impossible though.

-Look, now Brian and that guy are leaving – Steve laughed, already affected by the alcohol, Nick didn’t pay much attention but was quite laughing too.

-Are you going to spy Brian?

-Nooo… – Steve stupidly lengthened the “no” and giggled.

-So look at me, are you dancing with who?

-Uh – Steve looked around – You? Are we gonna dance this way all night?

-What “this way”?-Nick raised his eyebrow, and drank a little.

-Together? – Steve gave his better (and drunken) “I don’t know” expression.

-Don’t wanna dance with me?

-Uh… ah, that’s ok with you – they kept dancing.

-x-

-Damn Tomas! – Anna crossed her arms.

-He left you alone without explanation – Liesl said, after drinking a cup of whine. Anna was staying in the house of a friend of the twins or something, she didn’t really know. It would be funnier than the hotel, she thought.

-Yeah! Damn bastard, how could he?!

-But you said he wasn’t a fan, didn’t you? – Karin said quietly.

-Yeah, in what that helps?

-He’s not here because of ‘Cebo. – Liesl’s expression showed that she probably thought it was stupid to don’t know it.

-Oh yeah! But… DAMN bastard! I swear he was talking to Stefan – Liesl and whoever was there (and it wasn’t only 2 or 3 people) laughed.

-I seriously doubt it has anything to do with the band, he’d be too lucky.

-Yeah… but…

-Who knows? – Karin was quite serious, only with her usual soft and shy smile.

-Hm – Anna stayed thoughtful for a while – nah!

-x-

-Brian and Tom waited the cab to come. As usual, Brian was wearing a beanie.

They stayed with a small distance between them, trying to avoid every contact. Nothing could happen before they got between 4 walls.

Why cabs always take so long to get where you are and pass when you don’t need them?

-Oh, finally! – Brian got inside the car, apparently he knew the driver. And also pretended he haven’t seen Tom, even though he was sitting by his side. He just ignored, it obviously was a signal for Tom to act the same. And it was also obvious for the driver that there were something between them, maybe Tom was a whore.

They were like that until getting inside the room.

-x-

It was already late at night, the party was still happening and everyone appeared to be drunken. It was already visible some people undressing and dancing like whores, also people wasn’t paying much attention anymore on who was famous and who wasn’t. The band finally had plenty time to have fun.

Though, except from Stefan who was doing his gay dancing in all it’s glory, they haven’t much energy to have fun anymore

-I’m tired – Steve said in a way that it was almost impossible to understand, actually everything they were saying was hard to understand. No one paid much effort on trying, anyway.

-How tired? – Nick stared at him.

-Very tired – Steve giggled, Nick laughed too and stood up, facing Steve.

-Let’s get back to the dance floor.

-What? I’m tired!

-Come on – Nick pulled him, Steve resisted and when he gave in he bumped Nick because of the impulse. They stared at each other, finding only confused and drunken eyes.

Nick drawed his face closer to Steve, who avoided, but Nick didn’t step back. Steve stared at him a little more and then kissed him, they drawed each other closer in the momentum.

They broke the kiss and stared at each other again, blinking.

-What was that? – he giggled.

-I.. don’t know.

They kissed again.

-x-

Brian smiled at Tom, still wearing his beanie. In his 36 years, if he just smiled like that he would be the cutest grown up child ever. Tom simply smiled back, completely enchanted by his lover’s sweetness. Enchanted by the unbelievable fact that all that sweetness belong to him.

How he have missed his sweet Brian…

“-IF YOU THINK I DON’T KNOW LOVE NOW FUCK YOURSELF!”

Tom blinked with his awkward memories, it wasn’t time for that. It was different now.

-I’m so glad you want me now.. – Tom caressed gently Brian’s cheek, who hugged him softly like a little child.

-Of course I do… I love you – Tom’s heart warmed and fastened when listening to that. No matter how many times, it just felt wonderful to confirm he was beloved. Tom embraced Brian tight tightly.

-I don’t wanna let you go, never ever. I can’t afford to be apart again – he was already teary.

-Me neither. I tried to lie to myself so much – a tear of Brian fell on Tom’s neck – oh… – he lift his hand to dry his eyes, but Tom stopped him.

-Remember a long time ago I said I’d be at your side when you cry? – his eyes were also gleaming – I’m here – Brian smiled and more tears fell on Tom, who took off Brian’s beanie and kissed his forehead while stroking his hair.

A tear fell on Brian’s face, one that didn’t belong to him.

-You’re crying, Tom – Brian touched his face tenderly.

-I never been so emotive before, I mean. You’re one of my first real loves and I don’t know why but with you I feel something so weird, that makes me put all my romantic ideology in this love. Since our eyes met. – he smiled, embarrassed. Brian stared with curiosity and delight, mysteriously Tom didn’t seemed fool or cliché for him now.

Brian bit his bottom lip, waiting for more. Tom kissed him on the lips.

-I just love you.

Still hugging each other they found their way to bed, slowly taking off their clothes and then fell together on the soft king size mattress. Tom carefully covered themselves with the duvet, and hugged Brian again.

Tom tenderly kissed Brian’s lips and made circles with his tongue on his skin, sucking gently his neck, close to the ear. Brian moaned quietly when his ear was bitten and giggled when Tom tickled his neck.

Tom slid his hand over Brian’s body, caressing him from his neck to his thighs, kissing his chest and biting his nipples. Always softly, full of love and devotion.

He tickled, licked, kissed and sucked Brian’s belly, making him have all kind of reactions… slowly his mouth went a little down, when he opened Brian’s legs and kissed his thighs, provoking him. He caressed very softly Brian’s balls, making hi moan in anticipation, his cock pulsating and craving some direct touch. Tom provoked a little more and then, suddenly he kissed and sucked the head of Brian’s member, which was already extremely hard. He moaned loudly, calling his name.

Tom smiled and slowly put Brian’s member on his mouth all the way, he singer felt like melting inside him, Tom kept Brian’s legs open and sucked slowly, provoking and pleasuring his lover that was already out of his mind, opening and closing his legs on spasms and pushing inside Tom’s mouth. Suddenly fingers entered Brian, who freaked out, moaning insanely. Tom sucked fast and deeply, his fingers reaching a sensitive spot of Brian, who reached the orgasm, yelling in pleasure.

Tom swallowed and sucked one last time, he withdrew his fingers softly and sat at Brian’s side, who stared at him panting a little.

His blue eyes asked for more… questioned who was going to do the next step.

Tom was mesmerized by his gorgeousness.

Brian was lying naked on the bed, his long black hair was wet and spread on the pillow. You could see his wet chest moving slowly up and down in every breath, his arms and legs were opened, his knees still a little bended. His wide, excited, tired and awake eyes staring directly at Tom’s, still wearing the concert’s make-up which was a little blurred… he just couldn’t resist. His hand was touching his own cock before he could notice, Brian smiled at that and sat on the bed, removing Tom’s hand and replacing with his, they kept eye contact, Brian still smiling. Tom moaned when he softly squeezed it. His smile grew a little confident, he squeezed it again. Tom closed his eyes for a second, in pleasure, and Brian attacked his neck, going quickly to his mouth. They kissed deeply and Brian’s left hand reached Tom’s balls, holding it firmly. They rolled on the bed, ending with Brian lying on top of Tom.

-Where did you take the lube?

-It’s… near my trousers, I think – Tom fumbled the bed, until he found it and gave it to Brian, who expertly lubed his fingers and Tom’s ass.

Without any advice Brian slid a finger inside Tom, who moaned in delight, remembering how he missed it. Brian slid a second finger, playing inside him, while putting a condom on himself with the other hand.

-I’ll enter… – Brian couldn’t wait anymore, he removed his fingers and positioned himself.

-Yes, please – Tom begged, his legs very open. Carefully Brian entered him, Tom clenched his teeth and moaned… god, how he missed it! Brian stayed inside him without pushing for a few time, less than a minute. He tenderly kissed Tom’s neck and caressed his chest, Tom hugged him and Brian pushed.

-Ugh

Again

-Oh

And again

-Ha.. harder

And faster

Their pace fastened in every push, Tom’s nails started digging in Brian’s skin, both panting and moaning. Brian leaned on one arm and masturbated Tom with the other, until he couldn’t handle it and held Tom’s shoulder, pushing harder.

With Tom’s arms and legs wrapping him, and his nails digging into his skin, Brian entered Tom the deepest as he could and together they reached the orgasm, with moans that became screams, clenched teeth. Their bellies dirty of cum.

Tom released Brian, his knees bended and his arms open. Brian supported his elbows on the mattress, his hand taking his wet hair out of his face.

Tom smiled, a drop of sweat dripping from his forehead, Brian dried it softly. After a sweet kiss, he slid out of him.

Thrown exhausted on the bed… their hands found each other and they slept like that.

-x-

Everyone seemed to be asleep, except from Anna. She was hugging her knees, feeling scared without any reason she could wonder. She didn’t know those people after all. She was alone.

In the room she was supposed to sleep there were at least 3 other people, not only girls.

She lay and covered herself with bed sheets, trying to sleep, pretending to sleep… she felt a touch on her leg, she immediately froze, her heart raced in a way that she could hear its beats. After some seconds she quickly sat and face the invader.

-Liesl? – She was… surprised. What did she want?

-No, Karin. – She smiled, and came closer to Anna.

-What are you doing here? – she asked, suspicious. Karin giggled quietly.

-I think… the right question is “what do you want?” – she said calmly, Anna didn’t understand – I want you, sweet – she answered her own question.

-I… – Karin kissed her, and softly pulled her making she lay again. Anna answered the kiss but pushed her away when she felt the girl’s hand on her thighs – I’m not prepared for that – she was completely blushing. Karin’s eyes grew wide in shock, then she laughed.

-So sorry. I didn’t even wondered you were virgin – she put her hand on her mouth, trying to be quiet. Anna blushed even more – I mean, your breasts, I…

-Sorry, I gotta leave – Anna stood up and took her bag, going quickly to the bathroom to change her clothes, Karin ran after her.

-Wait! Anna! I’m sorry, you don’t need to leave because of me – she whispered.

-I’m not feeling well here, it’s not about you – she closed the bathroom door and put on her overcoat and trousers. When she got out, Karin was waiting for her, dressed too.

-Let me at least make you company – Anna sighed and nodded, after all she felt quite thankful.

They walked together until the sun rose, when they were back to the house and finally could sleep.

After (+18)

Chapter 8 – After

Brian was dancing with a woman he didn’t know. These fucking after parties always have strangers. The high music was penetrating his body, surrounding his mind. He tried to move enough to forget things, even though he was extremely happy with the band and all. Now wasn’t time to think about life and what comes with it, him… no, don’t fucking say his name.

The woman came closer, Brian pulled her by the waist and she wrapped her arms around his neck. She stared seductively at him and tried to kiss him, he avoided and she kissed his neck making him shiver…but still not enough to turn him on.

A hand landed on the woman’s shoulder, firmly. She turned to the stranger who seemed quite annoyed. Brian was already with his mouth open, ready to yell, before he saw who it was.

-EXCUSE ME, LADY! – Tom said out loud in an effort to make his voice be heard in the high music, and, of course, to don’t be ignored as he usually was by women.

-WHAT DO YOU WANT?! – she still was with one of her arms on Brian’s shoulder and he didn’t let her go indeed.

-JUST TAKE YOUR HANDS OUT OF HIM! – He gently took her arm away from Brian. She felt outraged.

-WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU THINKING?

-STOP YOU TWO! – Brian screamed, containing his laughter.

-WHAT?! – Brian didn’t answered and just licked Tom’s face, who shivered and squeezed Brian’s ass, provoking even more the woman. She stared at them shocked and just took the drink of somebody and threw it on Tom.

-YOU BITCH, IF THAT THING WAS ON ME YOU’D PAY FOR MESSING MY DIOR’S CLOTH! – Brian screamed angrily at her, who left. Tom just took out his shirt complaining.

They suddenly stared at each other.

-Brian, this time we’ll be together.. – Tom smiled at him, finally saying the words he wanted to say for so long.

-You didn’t break your promise, huh?

-No, I didn’t.

Both feel clumsy with words, and after a brief second that seemed to last forever they kissed on the middle of the dance floor. Feeling and touching each other’s entire body.

-Ow, look at Brian – Steve pointed to the couple, he and Nick were in the bar.

-I think he’s happy to see him again. – Stef showed up smiling.

-Did he already know that guy? – Nick asked, raising softly his eyebrows.

-Yeah, the guy from Paris, don’t you remember?

-Ooh, yeah! Is he that guy? – Now Steve was surprised.

-Yeah! He’s hot, isn’t he? – Steve felt embarrassed.

-Not exactly for my liking…

-But you could do taste – Stef simply said and walked away to the dance floor. Steve still embarrassed briefly glanced at Nick. Who didn’t seem to notice.

-Dance? – Nick finished the beer and turned to him.

Brian and Tom searched desperately for a bathroom or anything, they all seemed to be busy. Luckily they could find one, they entered and locked it so quickly that they didn’t even were aware of their actions. Their lips glued as if they have been apart for an eternity, their cocks already hard and visible through their trousers.

Their minds weren’t working, all that existed was love… it wasn’t simply a sexual game but the need of making love. Wild but emotional.

Their hearts beated in pace, they could feel it while they touched each other. Before they could notice both were naked and panting, sweat falling from their hair.

They grabbed each other’s asses, hands, cocks, heads… everything they could reach. Tom threw Brian on the wall, their lips still glued and their tongues wrapped, he held Brian’s legs and put them around his waist, with unusual strength. He took the lube and the condom he kept on his trousers that night, which waited for this moment, and prepared himself and Brian.

His finger slowly caressed Brian from the inside, making him moan, and then he withdrew his finger and thrusted his cock inside Brian, who wrapped his arms around his neck.

-Come… inside… – he tried to formulate a sentence while panting, in vain. Tom waited a little, preparing himself to push while holding his lover on his lap.

-Hold tight on me… – he pushed, Brian moaned in answer. Once more… twice… They were completely synchronized. Harder and faster, longer and louder. Deeper and… oh their minds weren’t working at all.

All that existed were their bodies. All they could do was to feel, taste and hear. Tom coming deeper inside Brian until they couldn’t handle it anymore.

They screamed. Screams of pleasure. Screams that couldn’t be heard from outside, because of the high music.

Tom got out of Brian and the singer sat down on his clothes.

Exhausted and sweaty they looked into each other’s eyes… and smiled.

This time… they were together.

Alive

Chapter 7 – Alive

Dark. People. Lights.

The support band already played. Now it’s B… Placebo’s turn. We’re waiting.

I’ll listen to my lover’s voice, doing what he loves the most. I’ll see his face in a way that I never did before.

Tom’s thoughts were extremely concentrated, trying to keep his mind focused despite his anxiousness. He couldn’t even pay attention to his friend who was almost fainting by his side, she was also with the twins though, someone would look for her anyway.

PLACEBO. Brian Molko.

The words that were in almost everybody’s heads.

Tom didn’t even know what the names of the other band members were.

Waiting.

Fuck, don’t take too long.

Wait…

PLACEBO

The venue was surrounded by screams as the band showed up. A guitar… Brian’s playing a guitar.

Tom felt so mesmerized and also ashamed for don’t knowing well the guitarist.

Brian started singing and he couldn’t help from being horny… his voice was so gorgeous and delicious, he felt like drinking every word. Even the words he couldn’t understand.

He remembered Brian’s orgasm, how his voice sounded, how his sweat tasted… he was there, not here, now.

I wanna have him.

Brian presented every band mate, Tom felt jealous. Jealous of how they could be near Brian, when they had to be apart for such a long time.

They played more and more, amazingly. The music wasn’t much of Tom’s taste, but it was Brian’s… and it was enough. It was well done, it had feeling and energy. It was gorgeous.

Much before the gig ended Tom’s cock hurt, he couldn’t handle his excitement. He slowly put his hand inside his trousers.

In any moment the singer noticed him.

Somehow, the poet, for being the poet, didn’t expect him to.

As Brian screamed the lyrics Tom cummed.

He thought their eyes met for a second, but he didn’t believe it.

And… after a while… it… ended?

What?

He had seen Brian.

Only this.

And nothing else.

He needed more than that.

…

-Are we gonna wait for the band? – Tom asked, his eyes wide open. His face expression was so weird they could have thought he was high.

-Of course! – answered Anna.

They kept talking, the girls were still confused by emotions. They waited for quite long, Tom didn’t notice his eyes were tearful.

-What is the matter? – Anna’s wide and concerned eyes watched him.

-Hm, I… – he noticed a little tear falling on his cheek.

-I didn’t think you could get so emotive on a gig of a band that you’re not even fan. – she released the smaller twin, who she was hugging, and stroked Tom’s hair.

-I think that’s Stefan!- they all stood up clumsily, trying to get their packs and stuff quickly and run to the tall guy.

-STEF! – Brian wasn’t there. Stef was in hurry, but acting as nicer as he could.

Part of the band members showed up, including Steve, all them were surrounded by the fans with papers, CDs and cameras.

-STEF! – Stefan looked at him, and after a while recognized him.

-You…? And Brian?

-Yes. – Tom nodded, panting – I came here. Please, I’m following your tour. My promise. I… – Stefan didn’t understand.

-Let me see Brian this time. If he loves me… I know I can make him happy. This time. I will be with him, all the time. – Stefan looked concerned, but after a while nodded.

-He already left. Come with us to the after party?

-Seriously? – Tom gasped in disbelief.

-You wanna see him, don’t you? – Tom nodded.

-WHAT?! – Anna showed up, Tom stared concerned at her.

Tom couldn’t take her with him, and if he left her alone she wouldn’t ever forgive him. Also it wouldn’t be fair.

-Shit.

WHAT DO I DO?

Line

Chapter 6 – Line

-Where is the venue? – Tom asked Anna, in vain, she was walking too quickly and didn’t seem to listen a thing. Or better, to pay attention. -HUH? – he tried to remember her that she was actually supposed to answer.

-WE ARE ALMOST THERE, OK? – no patience.

-DAMN, GIRL! WE ARE NOT! You said it a hundred times and I haven’t seen the venue so far! – he screamed back, trying to follow her – STOP!

-What’s now? – she stucked and jumped angrily, turning to him.

-Stop running around and bouncing these big boobs. ASK FOR INFORMATION. – he said in a clever way. She totally blushed, and arranged her shirt so her boobs wouldn’t be so visible.

-I-I…

-Excuse me! – he asked in vain to a passer-by woman, who just ignored him – DAMN! WHY THOSE WOMEN ALWAYS THREAT ME LIKE THAT?

-Are you going to the cebo gig? – two blond twins asked them, smiling, after a short glance at Anna’s shirt.

-Oh yeah! – Anna grinned.

-Great! We’re trying to get there too… Do you know how to get there?

-Oh shit…

…

-Oh, finally! – after all they managed to find the venue, luckily they had some hours before the gig, but definitely wouldn’t be in the first role.

-You know what they are saying? – a girl who was just before then on the line turned to them – they saw the band!

-REALLY? I CAN’T BELIEVE I MISSED IT! – Anna screamed in frustration and excitement, the twins sighed. Tom wondered a little… what would Brian do if he had seen him there?

-But they were quick and didn’t take any pics with the fans.

-Gosh! I can’t believe! I’m so excited, we don’t even know what they’re going to play – Liesel said, the taller of the twins.

-Tommy, you’re so quiet! – Anna stared at him – wake up.

-No, I’m just wondering…

-First gig? – Karin, the shiest of the twins asked.

Tom’s eyes opened wide, quite surprised, after a brief moment he smiled.

-Yeah – he nodded gently, the girl grinned.

-You two are so cute! – Anna glomped the girls, almost rapping them with her big boobs – I love blushed cheeks!

Tom still couldn’t pay much attention to them, he kept smiling and seeing much further away from where his eyes were looking at.

-Tommy, you, that don’t have many clothes or possessions. What’s that big pack for?

-My poetry – he said calmly.

-OH, I WANNA SEE – all the girls almost jumped on the pack, but Tom was faster and embraced it, protecting from the girls.

-No way. Those are personal.

-So be careful and don’t let it be stolen. – she crossed her arms, not very happy because her ask was refused.

-I… – Tom turned to her, ready to retort, but he just giggled when saw one of the twins almost drooling over Anna’s boobs.

-What?

-Nothing.

-Jesus, we’re gonna see Bri’s long hair! After the BALD-Bri-pie!

-Bald Brian… – Tom whispered, trying to picture him bald. No hair to grab. Even with all the pictures Anna had, it felt weird.

For Tom, to hear the girls talking about Brian Molko(or Bri-pie) and Placebo felt completely interesting and awkward.

Sometimes they just said things that didn’t fit with the Brian he knew, and sometimes it was just his Brian they were talking about.

There was a side of Brian he just hadn’t seen… today it would change.

And it all just made him miss and crave his lover even more terribly.

…

-FUCK IT’S NOW!

Start (+18)

Chapter 5 – Start

He stared at Tom, holding his arms, trying to make him look at his face, to make him notice how attractive this lady boy was.

No one could turn him down.

Not the androgynous young rock star Brian Molko.

His nancy boy look was irresistible, his shiny and tight pants, with a short and wide blouse that fitted his body perfectly. A messy bob and immaculate make-up with the killer beauty-spot.

He insisted trying to make Tom look at him, until Tom turned to him.

-I can’t play these games.

Brian let go of him and took of his own clothes, jumping naked on the bed. He lay with his head resting on his hand. Provoking with his naughty glancing.

-Won’t you sleep? It’s the only bed, baby.

Tom sighed and lay, turning his back to Brian, who came closer. Tickling him, who hardened with the touch of the naked tiny boy.

Brian kept provoking him, tickling his ears, his whole body touching Tom’s, but without kissing or licking. He made Tom crave a deeper Touch.

Tom turned to him fiercely and lay on top of Brian.

-You do want me – Brian rubbed his cock on Tom, who shivered.

They devoured each other with just a glance, Tom took off his shirt fiercely and Brian downed his pants.

They kissed and licked wildly. Brian opened his legs and bended his knees, Tom lubed and fingered him, the nancy boy moaning loudly.

He entered.

Brian moaned and moaned in his extremely girly way, quite like he did on stage but more real. Asking for more, asking his fucker to go harder and faster.

They scratched and bit each other. Brian kept masturbating himself.

Harder and faster. Both in rhythm.

Brian closed his legs around Tom, feeling his body tremble with such pleasure and need for more… he screamed and cummed when Tom came deeply inside him… they…

-BRIAN!

-WHOA! – he blinked confused, his cheeks almost glued to the bus windows’ glass.

-Wake up, we’re almost on Sheffield – ’twas Steve.

-Oh, yeah.

-Were you dreaming with the gig?

-No. – Brian raised his eyebrows, still confused – Why?

-You kept singing Bionic… – Steve said, apparently innocent, Stef giggled.

-Uh, ah… actually I forgot what my dream was about – he lied, Steve seemed to believe though.

-My first gig…

-Yeah, first of many. – Brian smiled.

…

Brian, Stefan, Steve, Bill, Nick, Fiona.

-FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!

They were ready.

Again

Chapter 4 – Again

-Hey, Nick! – Steve came up to him, grinning nervously.

-Hey there.

-First time playing for Placebo, huh?

-Yeah. Not counting rehearsals, yeah.

-It’s my second. – Steve was moving his arms as if training.

-Anxious, huh?

-Yeah.

-Me too – he smiled in an effort to comfort the young performer.

-x-

-Anna, are you going to follow them on tour? – Tom asked, on the way to Anna’s home.

-Yeah! – she bounced in happiness.

-Is there any chance of me going with you?

-Whoa! Are you serious? – her eyes grew wide, seriously surprised.

-Hm, yeah. But I don’t know if I’m able to. Money. – he scratched his head.

-But, Tom, what about… that guy? Isn’t that unfair? I mean…

-I can’t make you understand.

-Why?

-Doesn’t matter.

-Oh, Jesus fucking Christ! I hate secrets! – she crossed her arms, annoyed – But I’d love your company, if you want to go for real I’d pay for you.

-You’re not serious, are you? – Tom asked as his jaw dropped.

-Hm, more or less. My parents give me every fucking thing, but don’t spend two fucking minutes with me. So I get their money and my own company. – she smiled, rebel. Tom raised his eyebrow.

-Isn’t that childish?

-Oh, no, don’t you bullshit me. – she put her hands on her waist.

-Don’t be silly, petit. If you think it’s fair and if they don’t mind…

-Ok, enough. Do you really wanna go?

-I do.

-Aww – she bounced, clapping all smiley and glomped him, almost making him fell.

-Be careful!

-It will be so cool!

-Ouch! You bit me!

She laughed, not want to let him go.

-I’ll pay what you can’t!

-Do you think it’s fair?

-Of course it is! You’re like my chaperone, a whore! I pay your pretty ass and you stay me! – she laughed meanly, showing she was kidding.

-Isn’t that going to throw all my honour away?

-NO! EVERYONE WANTS TO BE A WHORE, THEY ONLY DON’T HAVE COURAGE TO DO IT! – she laughed out loud in a very evil way.

-Ok – Tom finally started laughing – Thank you, that’s something I really need to do. You don’t know how it’s important. – he smiled.

-The pleasure is all mine, and I’m hell sure I know how it’s important. I’m the fan here. – she made a fist, showing pride.

-I know.

-Oh, now I think I understand why people donate things for charity! It’s so cute to see this grateful face! – she hugged him again.

-x-

…

-Taratata yesterday was GREAT! – Steve said all happy, they were already leaving.

-Yeah, geez, how they found that video? – Brian seemed to be in a very good mood, no one asked about that guy again.

-But I can’t wait to play a real gig. – Steve looked all dreamy, like a child.

-We’ll work hard this year. Have you seen my jacket? – they were taking their luggage.

-Is over there… Brian. – Stefan pointed.

-What?

They crossed the front door, the car waiting outside and a young man with boina, who stood up when saw them coming out. Brian’s smile vanished in a second.

-You…

-Brian, I’ll prove to you that I keep my promises. – Tom said firmly, staring him seriously. Right through the eyes. Showing to the blue piercing eyes that he wasn’t lying, and not even the stubborn Brian could doubt, even against his will.

-Tom, I don’t want to talk about it again… – Brian stared sadly, asking Tom to go away.

-No, we didn’t.

The car honked.

-I gotta go.

-I know.

Just like that. Dry.

They were apart… again.

The wind in the poet’s face.

The window glass pressing Brian’s cheek.

And a promise that hadn’t break yet.

Vent

Chapter 3 – Vent

-Hey, Bri! – Steve greeted Brian, while eating his breakfast with the band at the hotel restaurant

-Things were good yesterday, huh? We saw your moving door! – Everyone laughed and Brian gave a killer glance exposing his middle finger.

-Morning, drama queen!

-Leave me alone! – Brian sat down and stared disgusted at the food, Stefan observed concerned and curious.

-What’s up?? – Steve raised his eyebrows – I thought you were very well yesterday.

-I just don’t want to talk about it.

-Ok

…

-Well, you come in? – Brian asked Stefan, with his hand on the doorknob of his room.

-Isn’t he there?

-No. He left before I woke up, actually I wasn’t asleep anyway. – he opened the door and they entered, Stefan noticed there was cum on the door.

-What happened yesterday? – Stefan sat on the bed, after confirming there wasn’t cum.

-He wants to be with me, but I don’t. I can’t give my heart to something I can’t have! Not anymore! – He said in a soft voice, as if he was trying to apologize.

-And you had a fight because of that? – Stef sounded and looked wise, it always happened when Brian vent… like a child.

-Yes. – he looked broken, Stef pulled him by the hand and made him sit on his lap, hugging him.

-I’m sorry.

-Why it has to be this way? All these months waiting for him, I promised to myself I’d be strong… but when I saw him I… I just couldn’t look him at the eye without falling apart. – he held his tears – I love him so much, I just give myself to him every time we keep eye contact… – Stefan stroked his hair – I can’t cry, I have Taratata today, I can’t look bad.

-You’ll be wonderful. Now, put a smile on your face. I know it’s easier said that done, but you have to. – Brian smiled.

-I’ll laugh on Sunshine a little. – he giggled, teary.

-He’s a good friend.

-Yeah… and what about your boyfriend?

-I’m gonna meet him soon. – he smiled.

-We’d better go, yeah?

-Yeah.

-x-

-You look so sad, Tomy – Anna stroked his hair, Tom was laying his head on her lap in a bench, on a less crowded street.

-I won’t pretend I’m not – he stared at the cloudy sky.

-Yesterday you were so weird! – She stared at him, capping the sky from his eyes – Could you tell me why?

-Hmmm

-You usually are very open, but when you decide to be coy, NOTHING opens your mouth! – She complained with her girly voice, Tom smiled softly.

-It’s just that you wouldn’t believe me… – he closed his eyes, hoping to feel the tide.

-Oh, why not?! I’m the kinda person that expects everything coming from anyone! – she stroked her hair, showing how it was purple, white and black.

-Nor you would believe. – he opened his eyes – maybe specially you wouldn’t believe. – he looked with raised eyebrows at her striped black and white shirt with “PLACEBO” written in pink.

-Awesome, isn’t it? – she pointed at her shirt, eyes shining – It’s an official one!

-Beautiful.

-DO not change the subject! – she slapped softly his head.

-I’ll tell you, but let me warn you I won’t say names – he worn a frown.

-Oook.

-Well – he sighed – ’bout June of last year…

-JUNE OF LAST YEAR? You’re having trouble for SO long? – her jaw dropped, Tom stared empty at her – sorry.

-I was selling poetry at a park when a stranger came to me. He was wearing sunglasses and eating icecream. Somehow he was impressive, I don’t know. Picture a small and pale black-haired man, very arrogant and trying to talk to you at the same time, with sunglasses and a giant ice cream.- he said dreamily and Anna laughed uncontrollably. – WHAT NOW?

-I… ICECREAM – she was crying by laughter when Tom’s freezing stare caught her. – sorry.

-I was attracted to him.

-WHAT? I CAN’T BELIEVE YOU NEVER TOLD ME YOU’RE GAY! – she almost screamed and Tom, AGAIN, stared annoyed. “Do not interrupt a poet”, the major of his rules.

-I like people (but never reached an orgasm with a woman, actually I’d rather be fucked than fuck). WELL. I flirted with him, he got it and took off his sunglasses… and I’ll take for the rest of my life the vision of his piercing blue eyes. – she sighed, whispering something like “Bri-pie”. Tom smiled tenderly – After that, it took a while before I saw him again.

-How much?

-About a month. He called me to have a drink with him, he asked me about my life, and I had the best lay of all my life..

-OH MY GOD! I WANT EVERY SINGLE DETAIL! – she screamed in a high-pitched voice, almost fainting in a girly attack.

-No – he said firmly – or I’d get really tight in my pants.

-Oh my god! – she was euphoric, with eyes shining more than all the glitter.

-He told me who he was and after the act I left – he made a sad face – I adored him, but I thought it was one night only and I’d never see him again. Next day, walking really early in the morning, I saw him crying on a bench. That broke my heart. He asked me to promise I wouldn’t leave him that day… I think I fell in love that day. Every time I looked him in the eye it was so deep, so touching. – he looked sadder and sadder every word he said.

-Is it so sad? – she asked concerned, stroking his hair tenderly.

-Yeah. Because after two beautiful weeks I found myself totally in love and he had to left. So… we had a fight. I don’t to say the details but, in the end, I promised I’d find him, wherever in this big world he’d be. But life isn’t only dreams and even though I never gave up, I couldn’t get the money – and, in very word he said, he was less reciting and rather venting.

-Oh.. I…I’m so, so sorry. – she sighed.

-Months passed and he’s back in France.

-Really? – she smiled, hopeful, but Tom was pure angst – What?

-I found him, he wasn’t even looking me in the eye and he says he doesn’t want anything with a guy he can’t have – Anne stared in pure pity, then hugged his head and kissed his forehead.

-I’m sorry… but, is that the true reason? I mean…

-He loves me. I know it. – he looked beganly and distressed.

She was astonished. Tom sat on the bench with wet eyes, she hugged him again, tenderly kissing his jaw.

-You can always cry on my shoulder.

-Je t’aime, petit Anna. – he laid his head on her shoulder, without tears.

-Je t’aime aussi.

-Could I get to your place and you tell me about that band you love so much? – Tom tried to smile. Anne smiled back, probably thinking he was flattering her to avoid his sadness.

-Of course, I doubt my parents are home.

Emotions (+18)

Chapter 2 – Emotions

I’ll wait here until you show up.

“-Is there any Brian Molko hosted? – Tom was almost being pulled out of the hotel by the security guards.

-We are not allowed to give information about our hosts. – the receptionist answered coldly.

-He was hosted here last year. – Fool thing to say, how would she remember?

-Please, monsieur, get out.”

I’ll wait in front of this damn hotel until you show up.

…

No matter how it lasts.

…

I’d sleep here if I needed to.

…

-BRIAN! – he ran desperate when he saw his silhouette getting out of the cab, with other people.

Brian turned to him raising his eyebrows. Indefinable. The other guys talked to him, in English, and left.

Tom’s eyes were full of tears and he was trembling. So astonished, he didn’t even notice.

-Brian… – Brian just stared, behind his sunglasses, even in the night.

-Come in – indefinable, it scared Tom. But he followed Brian letting the receptionist incredulous.

In the same moment they closed the door, Brian took of the sunglasses and Tom held his face, kissing him with love. Brian took of his leather jacket.

Tom tried to look in his eyes, as they used to, but Brian looked away.

-What’s the matter?

-Nothing.

-So look into my eyes. – Brian didn’t answer, he kept looking away, Tom still holding his face softly. – I didn’t earn money enough and I couldn’t get my grandpa’s heritage – Tom finally said.

-I know – He answered still looking away.

-Can’t you forgive me? – Tom came closer, trying to force Brian to face him.

-I don’t blame you for promising impossible things. – he answered arrogantly – But I can’t be with you if we see each other what? Once a year? Or less?

-I never broke my promise! – Brian finally stared him, right into his eyes.

-I can’t wait forever! – He answered angrily, and Tom drawed his face closer and they kissed furiously. Brian put his arms around him, pulling and grabbing his shirt. Both feeling each other’s horniness and kissing until losing their air.

They inhaled deeply and saw into each other’s eyes excitement, anger, sadness, challenge.

Brian opened his belt and lowered his trousers releasing his erection. Tom took of his shirt and did the same.

Brian turned Tom to the door and opened his legs a little. He thrusted himself inside him without lubrication, but a little of spit. Tom clenched his teeth in pain. Brian pushed, Tom’s face pressing the door. Brian held his waist, pulling him while pushing, harder and faster. Tom moaned loudly and started masturbating himself, his head pressing the door every time Brian pushed.

Both moaning and panting, in pleasure, pain and effort.

Brian pushed hardly, Tom supported his hand on the door, Brian put his upon it. He kept going harder and faster and deeper. He grabbed Tom’s hand and scratched his waist, getting inside him as much as he could. Tom’s moans become louder and louder until he screamed and reached orgasm with Brian, cumming on the door.

Brian got out of him, panting. He took off the rest of his clothes and lay on the bed. Tom leaned his head against the door, resting a little before following Brian and lying on top of him.

-I didn’t have sex since you left. – he whispered in Brian’s ear, who smiled but didn’t answer. Tom didn’t expect him to, anyway. – Brian… you had lovers during your career, and you couldn’t take all them with you… – Brian listened carefully – Why can’t you do the same me?

He stayed in silence for a while.

-Maybe because I’m sick and tired of it?

Not the right answer, but Tom somehow understood.

-I’m still trying to earn money. – he then said, in low voice. Brian laughed contemptuous.

-I’m not gonna wait! – he tried to push Tom out of him, but he resisted.

-I promised, you made me promise. So I believe you have a part on it all – he then kissed Brian, who tried to push him and resist until Tom pulled Brian’s head with a hand. Brian gave up and thrusted his long tongue deep inside Tom’s mouth, letting him out of his breath.

-I don’t believe you don’t love me – he caressed Brian’s neck with his fingers, making he shiver, while he followed Brian’s eyes that always looked away, running, hiding from the piercing stare of his lover – Look at me…

-I won’t! Can’t you fucking understand?

-Fuck, Brian! From what the hell are you running?! Fuck!

-I can’t give in to you! We’re not going to FUCKING be together!

-Aren’t this argue going anywhere?

-No, it’s not! – Brian stared angrily into his face, Tom slid to his side and crossed his arms. – Now you’re the one who avoided facing! – Brian turned to him.

-Why the fuck do we argue for such stupid reasons? – Tom closed his eyes and put his hands on his face.

-I don’t see why these argues are stupid! – Brian lied, Tom just stared empty at his face – Don’t look at me as if I was stupid ’cause I’m not! Grow up!

-You are the one that should grow up, Brian! ‘Cause I’m 25 and I know things that you 10 years older don’t!

-Like what? – they were speaking out loud.

-Like LOVE, you twat! – Tom screamed, Brian laughed loudly in mockery.

-IF YOU THINK I DON’T KNOW LOVE THEN FUCK YOURSELF! – Tom stared shocked, raising his eyebrows with wide eyes.

-I’m sorry.

Brian was trembling in anger, laughing nervously. He didn’t answer nor looked at him again. Tom regretted, now he shouldn’t even touch Brian without being expelled from the room.

They stayed like that until sleep.

Destiny

PART 2

Chapter 1 – Destiny

 

“Cast your line back to the days

When I pretend I was ok

I have so very much to say

About my crazy living”

After Paris, Brian was different. Not as if everyone would notice, but he was. He was optimistic, almost as if he was trying to cover, to hide something. Working, laughing, not even complaining much.

The only one that knew what he was going through was Stefan, his mate for 15 years. The only one Brian felt safe to talk openly about it. The only one that made Brian accept to cry. Days, weeks, months passed and his lover didn’t come. It’d usually destroy him, but somehow he was still strong.

He decided to battle for the sun and not even the greatest love would stop him.

The album was done. It was time to go on… and back to France. Taratata.

He felt bitter, but it was his job and he loved France after all. He’d give his best. Always.

-Brian, are you sure you won’t look for him? – Stef asked when they arrived in Paris.

-No, he promised.

-He doesn’t even know you’re here…

-I won’t. – Brian said dryly, putting an end to the subject.

-What are you guys talking about? – Steve showed up, smiling.

-First time in Paris? – Brian smiled.

-Yes. – He was grinning.

-And where it is? – Stefan puzzled.

-France! I know that! – Steve looked offended, Brian giggled.

-We’ll hang out today?

-Yeah, the program will be tomorrow.

-x-

-Bonjour, mademoiselle! How do you like poetry? – the charming poet always on the streets, and as usual the lady ignored him. He sat on a bench and sighed.

-Tommy! – a girly voice yelled.

-Bonjour, petit Anna. – he smiled softly at the sight of the young lady.

-How are you?

-Well, fine. But my money isn’t enough.

-You are in trouble, aren’t you? You never needed money like now. – she seemed very concerned.

-It’s a promise.

-For who?

-My love.

-Oh – she was surprised – You’re so cheesy! – she laughed, Tom smiled sadly in displeasure and stood up, giving a little pat on her forehead.

-Silly little girl, you don’t know what is love.

-Oh, WAIT! – She almost screamed.

-What?

-Look! – She pointed to cab that passed, looking perplex.

-What’s the big deal?

-I’m SURE Placebo was in that cab! – Tom’s eyes grew wide, completely shocked.

“-Hey, wait, what’s the name of your band?

-’Cebo.”

-B… Brian?

-No, actually Steve, his window was open and I’m SURE it was him! WITH the band! – She talked quickly, completely euphoric and shocked, almost punching Tom and searching a fan so she could talk properly about it.

-Oh… I… I didn’t know you were a fan. – he was staring the ground, with wide eyes.

-Of course I am! What’s up to you? – she was so shocked that she was late noticing Tom was definitely worse.

Brian is in Paris. Brian is in Paris. Brian is in Paris.

BRIAN!

He felt as if there was a rock on his throat.

Brian… I need to find him. I need. I need.

Before he’s gone.

And if she’s wrong?

Fuck.

Destiny?

Always take the chance.

He must be hurt.

Even if he’s hurt.

Specially if he’s hurt.

Brian…

How I’m supposed to find him:?

What am I gonna do…

Brian, I…

-x-

-Sunshine, if you don’t close the window you’ll have fans all over! – Brian complained.

-Would they chase the cab? – he laughed.

-Don’t doubt it – Stef giggled. – Versailles?